Wowowow,no one tells you how heavy it is not to become who you thought you’d be”. No matter how content and happy I am with the different life paths I’ve taken, small moments take me back to my younger self, doe-eyed wondering what happened. But your point is exactly the answer: nothing happened, it’s just that I am not you anymore
It’s okay to grieve the life you thought you’d live. It’s also cool to see you embracing new passions right now - passions that you may have not been as consciously aware of when you were all in on your music. Maybe the younger version of you didn’t realize how multi-passionate you’d be, and maybe she’d think that’s even cooler! You’ll find music again when the time is right.
oh my goodness, this piece was so devastatingly relatable. i’ve thought about this a lot, not just in terms of career but also “life accomplishments” and the works. all i can say is im so happy you came to the resolution you did—honoring yourself as you are at any given moment rather than trying to appease your younger self from the past—but also realize it still comes with heartache and grief. thank you for sharing your story, sending much love 💓
absolutely. sometimes i think those what ifs are actually real timelines, so in another life, i’m doing the thing i always imagined. when i think of it that way, i feel a freedom to explore the now more presently bc i know im not missing out if that makes sense. not sure if that’s helpful for you but it’s something ive found comforting
Wowowow,no one tells you how heavy it is not to become who you thought you’d be”. No matter how content and happy I am with the different life paths I’ve taken, small moments take me back to my younger self, doe-eyed wondering what happened. But your point is exactly the answer: nothing happened, it’s just that I am not you anymore
exactly! and there are so many different versions of ourselves that we have yet to evolve into! who knows who we will be in a year from now?
It’s okay to grieve the life you thought you’d live. It’s also cool to see you embracing new passions right now - passions that you may have not been as consciously aware of when you were all in on your music. Maybe the younger version of you didn’t realize how multi-passionate you’d be, and maybe she’d think that’s even cooler! You’ll find music again when the time is right.
so true
oh my goodness, this piece was so devastatingly relatable. i’ve thought about this a lot, not just in terms of career but also “life accomplishments” and the works. all i can say is im so happy you came to the resolution you did—honoring yourself as you are at any given moment rather than trying to appease your younger self from the past—but also realize it still comes with heartache and grief. thank you for sharing your story, sending much love 💓
yeah it’s such a complicated thing bc i’m happy with myself but also like the “what ifs” of it all are tricky to navigate
absolutely. sometimes i think those what ifs are actually real timelines, so in another life, i’m doing the thing i always imagined. when i think of it that way, i feel a freedom to explore the now more presently bc i know im not missing out if that makes sense. not sure if that’s helpful for you but it’s something ive found comforting